It has taken me some time..to get it. People…family…others outside of self. They are who they are. They are where they’re at. (pardon ending with a preposition…lol)
Too much time spent trying to convince someone to see the world as I see it. vast open, abundant, limitless cosmic, grandeur…and easy. I now know it is futile. It only promotes suffering and efforting for us both.
I got my own damn problems, my own children, my own partner, my own dreams needing some attention. Loving everyone and their problems can’t fix their pain… indefinetly, a lifetime of putting Tee on the backburner just so that no one feels left out, while we all eat. Rooting for their success…even more than my own….smh has diminished self production.
I relenquish the need to stop my climb and keep them company where they’re at. I’ve realized, they all have the same things that the creator gave me…unless they ASK for my help, I will listen, and ease into minding my own business… My desire is to do what I came here to do to : write, to draw, to sing, to laugh, to love, to imagine, and to create. Serving others I got something out of it, but now I need a person in my corner like the me that has been riding for them in their corner. I think I’ll put in for a transfer and apply for my best friend position.
Honestly , No time to waste.
Today’s got this poem stuck in my head for 2 days now. Experimenting on writing a single line poem….a monostich, never even HEARD of such a thing..but to write is to learn to write…in between projects.
pushing to write..and strengthening my writer’s muscle
loving all kinds of me